Missing in Action

I am rather conscious I have been missing from action in blogland for a while. I just checked my dashboard and couldn’t believe how many comments there were to publish. I am struggling a little at the moment with severe nausea and exhaustion, interspersed with some rather nasty stomach pains. Everyone who hears this jumps to the same conclusion, but because I have had a false alarm before (with a hydatidiform mole) I am not assuming that I am expecting until I have a scan next week.

This means that the last month has been about getting through the day an hour at a time. I feel so blessed that I have a husband who has really taken care of the kids and picked up the baton where I have totally dropped it by looking after the children organising meals and daily pack lunches (he actually sends the kids to school with chapatti’s and curry!), ferrying me around between hospitals, clinics and work and generally keeping our little world revolving

My manager at work has been so understanding allowing me to come in late and leave early if needs be and work from home. His manager reassured me that I need not come in if I cannot cope. My colleagues have all been looking out for me and some have taken on work for me alhamdlillah. The funniest thing is when my manager complained he got told off by someone because people thought I looked tired because he was giving me too much work.

My sisters have been around regularly keeping me company, bringing whatever food I can stomach and checking up on me. Subhan’Allah its times like this that my faith brings such a positive perspective into my life:

The Prophet (sallallahu alayhi wasallam) said, "Strange is the affair of the Mu'min (the believer), verily all his affairs are good for him. If something pleasing befalls him he thanks (Allah) and it becomes better for him. And if something harmful befalls him he is patient (Saabir) and it becomes better for him. And this is only for the Mu'mmin." (Muslim)

So although I have been feeling revolting, getting rather dehydrated and have not been able to do much or be much use to anyone, I feel like Allah SWT is merciful and that I am the luckiest woman alive subhan’Allah (I just hope I don’t eat my words when I am next going bright red and puking up all over the place!).

But Subhan’Allah, in the meantime, sooooo much has been happening (even if I haven’t been contributing much).

Fahsionista’s wedding planning is going full steam ahead with a wedding dress ordered in a completely different colour than we were planning and the cutest valima dress found. So far venue and guest list are sorted, food and decor is being worked on and there remains lots more to finalise.

My mum and dad have gone travelling with a week in Saudi for Umrah (pilgrimage) and then onto Pakistan for wedding shopping – that hasn’t gone great, will post on that later. Whilst they are away, the girls have taken the opportunity to work with my hubby to re-do the house and replace wallpaper and carpets with skimmed walls and wooden flooring. My parents don’t know so hopefully will get a great surprise when they get back (I soo wish I had taken “before” shots)

I went on a tour of the Olympic Park and I have to say it is pretty amazing, I will post pictures at some point. Little Lady went to the Aquatic Centre in the Olympic Park to watch FINA’s Diving World Cup and will be going to meet the Queen with her class tomorrow as part of the Queen's Diamond Jubilee National Tour (she is visiting a local historical building). Little Man will be going to the Olympic Park in May to watch the Visa International Invitational Hockey Tournament in the Riverbank Arena.

Work is manic as ever. Alongside my regular work, I am still working with the Olympic team but my work has garnered attention, so senior managers have asked me to work with our Communications Team to draw up a plan of how they will deliver their service before and during the Games. I’ve also been asked to work on a project to bring some project planning principles to the organisations events strategy for the coming year – involves lots of meetings, maps and madness at this stage. This stuff is really stretching me to the limits, but I am enjoying and it the level of concentration it requires distracts me a little from the nausea, although it doesn’t help the exhaustion.

So at the moment, I am trying to be kind to myself, spending lots of time lying down, eating what I can when I can (have not had curry, which we eat daily, in weeks) praying the bare minimum but with lots and lots of dua (supplication), being honest when I feel terrible and taking all or nay help on offer.

I will probably carry on counting the days to my scan and then decide how to move forward with the outcome. Either way Allah (SWT) has given me too much to be grateful for to give into the misery (although this doesn’t mean there won’t be some tears each day). I would be grateful for your precious dua’s insh’Allah and also for your forgiveness for those of you to whom I have not responded to your e-mails recently or not been fulfilling my obligations on time. (Also if you know any nausea cures and don’t mind sharing, would be great to hear from you – have tried ginger biscuits, baking soda in water, green tea and only 7up helps so far).

“Surely with every difficulty there is relief. Surely with every difficulty there is relief.” (Al- Quran 94:5-6)

“When Allah has previously decreed for a servant a rank which he has not attained by his action, he afflicts him in his body, or his property or his children.” (Abu Dawud)

”There is nothing (in the form of trouble) that comes to a believer even if it is the pricking of a thorn that there is decreed for him by Allah (something) good or his sins are obliterated.” (Sahih Muslim)